Goodbye Ordinary

Today is day 30! Another MSY Yoga challenge in the books!

I’ve made the intention to do yoga every day from not until the wedding (under 60 days to go), so it’s just the beginning of my “challenge” and the hard part starts tomorrow.

Tonight we had a wonderful class, Sandy led us through a few warm ups and a couple of suns and then just let us flow on our own. I mostly just did suns, but I threw in some wild-things… which led to wheels. Then I felt like wide angle forward fold was a good idea… and a bit later seated wide angle forward fold. It all ended with a delicious savasana. And then we partied.

My fiancé and little monsters came for the party this year and that was great. The kids played with a sweet little toddler that the whole town loves (and she wore them out!) and the mister finally got to meet all the people I’ve been talking about for a month (or for some of them– the entire time he’s known me, which is almost 3 years).

The party–which isn’t only celebrating the challenge, but also the anniversary of MSY– is always one of my favorite events of the year. You actually have time to sit and chat with these amazing people that show up and practice alongside you. You realize how little you know about them, yet you feel like they are family. It’s a hard feeling to put into words… But even without really “knowing” them… These are my people. You know? They fill my cup. I see one of them in the real world and it brightens my day.

it’s also amazing how just being in that space has a similar effect. I open that heavy wooden door and immediately can smell the varnish/paint in the stairwell. Breathing that in (mmm chemicals) is just like when I go into my grandmothers basement.. It doesn’t necessarily smell “good” but the smell just evokes this feeling of security. I’m home. (I’ve talked about this many times).

Tonight Kath talked some, and opened the floor to others, but all I could do was sit there and not cry. I’m ridiculous I know, but I am a very emotional person (see last post lol)  and there is no way I could have said anything without crying. I just love MSY. I love Kath (and Shelly and Sandy). There’s just a lot of love.

I wish that everyone had some version of a place like that. Somewhere to go, let go of the world, and just feel the love.

Rolling up my mat was such a bittersweet moment. We did it! We did 30 days–30 hours of yoga. But damn, I don’t ever want to leave. If/when we move from Mansfield, I know that MSY (and it’s tribe) are going to be one of the few things I will terribly miss, and never ever be able to replace.

And with that, here’s to tomorrow. The real day one.


Posted on: April 29, 2015

Today is day 29 of the Elite Yoga Challenge. It’s been a breeze this year. The hardest part has been juggling the kids and traveling for childcare on days that my wonderful fiancé can’t make it home from work in time.

I haven’t blogged daily this year (obviously) about the challenge. At first, I meant to. But then I came to the realization that I didn’t need the accountability like in past years. I simply NEEDED the yoga and the companionship from my yoga tribe. So I decided to be intentionally selfish and soak it ALL up myself instead of sharing it. “Be selfish to be selfless”. That sort of thing.

Now that it’s almost over I’ll admit that my (almost ever-present) anxiety is starting to flair up. I have issues. There are 59 days until my wedding. My to-do list for said wedding is still pretty long (though I should actually recompile it so I can start checking things off). I’m dreading being photographed for the wedding because my self esteem is pretty low lately, despite the media push for “body love”. I’m just not there right now.

I have never cried in yoga, though I’ve experienced some fellow yogis have those moments. Yesterday in savasana I did get a little teary eyed. It wasn’t until last night after yoga that I realized just how emotional I was. Unfortunately, it made for an uncomfortable evening.

Today I just feel…. emotional. Kind of drained. Cry-ee if you will. I don’t know what my deal is. The current events unfolding here in the US are probably adding to this feeling. I don’t pretend to understand how any one else feels about the situation, but I just know that it effects everyone, all of our children, and their children.

Every day this month I’ve thought about why I do yoga. The exercise. The friendship. The feeling of safety/ “home” at the studio. The ease of tension. The gratitude. The openness.  The strength. The positivity. The balance. The patience. The courage. The self awareness. The acceptance.

All of these things are why (and countless more).

I’m so thankful that I stepped out of my comfort zone 4.5 years ago and attended my first class at MSY. Shaking like a leaf, walking through that door changed my life.

“Clarity of the mind, Kindness of the words, Compassion of the heart”. <<That is my prayer for ALL human beings today and everyday.

Alright, so once again I’ve been MIA. I think most of my blog posts start that way.

We have had a very busy couple of weeks since my mom was here to visit. We went on a wedding crafting marathon and knocked a bunch of stuff off of our to do list for the wedding! It’s getting closer! 2.5 months to go!

In addition to the craziness of wedding planning/crafting, April is Yoga challenge month at the studio I practice at (though I’ve been a stranger to it for over a year now.. which is sad).

I keep meaning to get there on a regular basis but life happens and I fail. So, when I got the email last month about this years yoga challenge, I thought it was the perfect opportunity to get my practice AT the studio back on track, and get my family to realize once a week really wouldn’t be a hardship… especially after 30 consecutive days figuring it out.

Last night (Day 9) was probably one of the top 3 practices of my life. It was amazing. There were only 3 students in the evening class, and we’re all at similar levels, so our wonderful yogamama decided to shake it up, face us in a circle, and practice with us! It was empowering.

Thursday’s are “Sunsational Yoga” where we do variations of sun salutations, so that’s what we did last night, among some other fun stuff. It was especially exciting when we were deeply in a set of 5 Surya namaskara B’s and with my eyes closed I saw a bright flash of light (I assumed from a camera), and then as I was in a chatturanga-low pushup… BOOM. A building shaking boom. It was pretty scary. I think we all lost our breath at that moment and had to take a second to get back in the flow of that Surya B! Funny thing is, it didn’t thunder or lightning again the whole night.

I left that practice feeling fantastic.  All week I’ve had this overflowing feeling of happiness. “My cup runneth over” sort of feeling. It’s been a culmination of the wedding, my mom being in town, my awesome kids, and spending time with my yoga family at the studio. It makes me wonder how I survived the past year and a half only going sporadically.

I had planned to recap each day individually but to be honest I cant remember which day was what anymore, so I’ll just say that I’m loving the challenge, loving my life, and I’m looking forward to the future!

Oh: the other most notable moment from the challenge this far was last Thursday, during Sandy’s Sunsational class. Her granddaughter was here on a visit and practiced next to me. We had a few moments during the practice where our gazes met, we shared smiles, and even a giggle at my point. There are two things I just couldn’t help but feeling during that practice with young M next to me: Hope– because she reminded me of my kids and I hope they love yoga like she does someday, and because it’s the kids like her and my own children that will carry on all of our values and practices, hopefully including yoga! And the other thing… Joy. Pure joy. I just kept noticing during the practice (and well after) that I was just simply elated. I couldn’t help but to smile. I have been that way every since. I feel lighter. I am happy. ❤


Spring is upon us and the dreadful cold of winter is hopefully just a memory. It’s been marginally warmer the past few days (finally), and the snow has been melting! We’re finally starting to see glimpses of greenery popping up!

As happy as I am that all of that is happening, I have to admit that I’m not much a fan of this time of the year. I hate mud almost as much as I hate the freezing cold. It’s such an ugly blah dull brown out, the only thing that makes it better is knowing that each day will get greener and warmer (I hope) than the last.

Today I was feeling noticeably better than the rest of this week and with it being 40ish I really wanted to get the kids out of the house. We decided to go to the bike trail after school. It was still frozen over in spots, which made it interesting, but overall it was a success. We went until just shy of the overpass (as it was frozen for as far as we could see, so we decided it was time to turn around). I was kicking myself for not finding my fit bit (and charger) before we left so I could count that as a workout.

The fresh air did wonders for my head and my mood! I’m hoping tomorrow is another nice day and I can get a real workout in, and maybe another walk. Though tomorrow there is a tour coming to check out Grandpa’s maple operation, so Little Miss and I get to help out with that 🙂

I can’t wait for it to be warm enough for short sleeves!

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Let me first say: I hate being sick.

I am a complainer. and I am miserable.

This sickness just seems to be dragging. It started (slowly) last Monday, was worst Monday & Tuesday, and is a tiny bit better today, but I’m not quite there yet.

It really annoys me because I have the mindset of being back on track with exercise, but I just am not physically ready to do it in this shape. I fear my head may explode if it’s inverted. lol Seriously though, it hurts.

Today, my package from Young Living arrived. I’ve been a Melaleuca user since I was a Freshman in highschool and my mom joined, so I’m not completely new to essential oils or their uses, but I haven’t used anything except Melaleuca and Peppermint so far.

I was pretty excited to get my starter kit, since I’m sick I figured it’d be the perfect opportunity. I set up the diffuser & put some lavender oil in the water and within minutes I could breathe through my nose for the first time since Sunday. (Except for at night when I took Nyquil to not keep the mister up all night).

I also tried lemon oil in my water today, which I was a bit hesitant to try because I don’t really like lemon, but it’s actually rather tasty. I’m hoping it helps to boost my immune system so I can kick this crap to the curb and get back to my practice!

I’m looking forward to finding many other uses for the oils and sharing the love!

🙂 Hopefully I’ll be back on the mat tomorrow! In the mean time, I’ll continue binge watching Downton Abbey.


21 day Fix

Posted on: March 2, 2015

So, over the past year, I’ve been trying other exercise programs (both yoga and not) to try to figure out what “works” for me. My problem with ANY workout program is I’m fantastic at committing to it for the first 2 weeks. Then Boom. I suck.

The only time that wasn’t the case was with MSY’s “April Challenge” years ago, where we could go all 30 days to the studio. Somehow THAT kept me on track. (I think it was partly the socializing of it).

Anyway, over the course of the past year, I tried a few of the beach body workouts: T25, Piyo, and 21 Day Fix. In doing so, I got a “coach”, Jessica, who is a wonderful woman and a super mom! Her “challenge groups” on facebook were always so fun and kept me accountable (whether many other people participated or not) and it seemed to help me stay on track.

Today we started a 21 Day Fix challenge group. It’ll be my first time actually doing the program as it was made to do. Last time, I did it as a mix of piyo and 21 day fix, and I had good results but I didn’t get to try all of the 21 day fix workouts because of the mashed schedule with piyo.

Tonight the kids and I put the first disc in and did Total Body Cardio Fix. It was a first for me, because on the modified schedule, Monday’s were a Piyo day. It kicked my butt. I hate Cardio. At least in yoga you’re focused on your breath and not the exercise so you don’t realize how hard it actually is (at least for me). All I have to say is I’m SO glad that the workouts are in 60 second increments, because if they were any longer, I’d probably have a heart attack.

My favorite part of the 21 Day Fix is definitely the food side. It really opens your eyes to portion sizes and what we SHOULD be eating. I thought I ate “so many fruits and veggies” until I ate according to the meal plan. Then I was like wow… What DO I eat?!

Those little containers are deceiving bc I was worried I’d starve to death and most days I could barely finish all of my containers!

I’m also planning to actually start “coaching”, so if anyone is interested, get in touch with me!



Posted on: February 26, 2015

Today I finally made it to MSY to practice. It was one of my fellow yogi’s who is now a yoga teacher that was teaching class. I was amped. There’s nothing like watching someone you love do something they love and are great at!

The class was “Slow Flow: Balance” and it was dreamy.

My muscles are tight and sore from not used to being worked and the work I put them through the past two days. I needed a nice long stretch and that’s exactly what this class gave me. And boy, did an hour FLY by!

I have a block at home, but my practice space is the middle of the living room and I don’t ever use the wall, though occasionally I grab on to the couch or entertainment center if I need some extra help and the block doesn’t suffice.

Today though, we made a point to use props (the wall & 2 blocks) to help access some poses that may be out of reach… or atleast pretty darn uncomfortable and fulllll of turbulence.

One of those poses was half moon. While I usually love most balance poses, I typically hate half moon. I shake like a tree in a hurricane and I just cannot find the openness in my chest to put my arm actually toward the sky without falling… even with a block.

Tonight though, Sandy opened up a new world to me using the wall. By placing my foot against the wall, I could actually extended my arm to the sky and feel that amazing stretch. It was great! THEN we did a vinyasa using half moon and wouldn’t you know… I did it unassisted (well, with the block!) Who knew?

I know sometimes props feel like “crutches” and they don’t typically showcase them in Yoga Journal or any of those “pro” photos, but let me tell you something… Props are rad!

I sweat like crazy in tonights class and my new Manduka Pro mat is soo slippery (3rd time use today) so that was a challenge, but I walked out of class feeling so refreshed and those sore muscles? They’re completely relaxed and happy right now. (Shh don’t tell my fiancé, he had promised me a massage bc I was so sore yesterday).

Yoga really is amazing. Everyone should try it. lol


Today I surprised myself and looked at the UY schedule and saw Cardio. I loathed Cardio. If you go back through my blog I’m sure there are some posts complaining about how hard it is. I didn’t remember the practice, but I remembered it’s long. and tiring. and hard. and sweaty.

I kept thinking what other workout programs I have… Piyo, T25, 21 Day Fix, Yoga Warrior 365 (that’s still in the cellophane for over a year… oops) and trying to decide what I should do during naptime today.

Then I’m not quite sure what came over me but at 11am I was like hmm.. If I workout NOW while Little Miss is watching a movie… I can make lunch, shower, AND possibly take a nap WITH her. hmm.

So, I got my butt up, rolled out my mat, and popped in Cardio.

I’m not going to lie, it was as hard as I thought it was going to be. His “series of 10” was a series of 5ish and a realllly long childs pose. I drank some water, watched the making ultimate yogis finish the series NOT dying… and jumped back in for the next part. I finished the rest of the practice with them and there we go.

Then instead of napping with the girl after a short shower, I decided to take a hot bath with some tea tree oil. It was heavenly.

My muscles are still groaning from the workouts of this week. I love it. I mean, it does kind of hurt when I switch from standing to sitting or vice versa but… It’s worth it.

Tomorrow I’ve convinced my fiancé to come home early so he can watch the children and I can make it to a class at the studio. I cannot WAIT. If only my mat were less slippy already. That would be even more perfect.

Today I rolled out my mat to actually practice YOGA instead of one of the BeachBody programs that I’ve been doing off an on for almost a year now…

I did make it to ONE yoga class at the wonderful Main Street Yoga a while back, but still. Really? Who is this person I’ve become?!

I got lazy. I got chubby. I lost stamina, muscle tone, balance (both physically and mentally), and man do I miss my peeps.

I almost didn’t roll out my mat today (for yoga, that is). I decided I was in fact going to exercise, but my daughter laid down for a nap, I resisted the urge to curl up next to her, but I almost picked a beachbody workout that was more in the 30 minute range… So that I COULD be lazy after while she was still asleep.

Instead I was moving around DVDs on the corner shelf that hasn’t been touched in ages, and found my The Ultimate Yogi set wedged behind some other DVDs and thought hmm… “I miss Travis” So, I popped in CrossTrain and got to it.

I haven’t done a UY asana in probably a year. It makes me sad to say that. UY was such a part of my life for a while… and then it started collecting dust as life got busy and though the intention was never to let it go so long, one day turned into a week, into a month, into months, into a year… and bam. Here we are.

I was intimidated to press play. I couldn’t remember the practice, I knew it used to be a favorite, but I am NOT in the shape I used to be in. I knew it lasted 50ish minutes, and that those minutes seem long when you’re out of shape… But somehow, I managed to press play. I am SO glad that I did.

The entire practice, I felt my muscles stretching, lengthening, and groaning a bit. It felt GOOD. It felt like home.

I paused a few different times as I realized that I had a smirk on my face- like one you get when you are reminiscing with an old friend.

My body remembered.

I wasn’t distracted at all. I listed to Travis’s cues and focused on my ujjayi breath and just fell into the flow.

I’m not going to lie during that last flow I almost just took child’s pose and waited it out. I was tired. My arms felt like they were going to give out during every chatturanga of that flow, my legs were shaking, but I felt beautiful. I felt free. I felt like ME.

How did I let myself lose such a big piece of me for so long? The truly crazy part is, I didn’t even realize that it was missing until I found it today.

Now if only I could get a daily practice back into my routine, it’d all be peachy.


Yesterday was our second day running in the woods with my new shoes :P.

Today is definitely going to be a yoga only day because the running has caught up to me finally and my calves are sore.

Last night’s “run” was intense. It was Week 2 Day 3 of couch to 5k. We are testing out all of the “trainers” to see who we like best. Wednesday was Johnny Dead, last night was the Sergeant. Anyway, since Wednesday we tried to find the lower trail (that kind of loops around the woods) and we couldn’t, and the monster had trouble going through the higher weeds, we decided to just go back the way we came… which had been downhill.

The Monster on the trail

The Monster on the trail

Bad idea. We missed an entire “jog” cue because it was on the steepest part of the hill and just hiking up it I thought my lungs were going to explode. Eeek. Not doing that route again.

Our total (for the app) was 1.99 miles in 31 minutes, but we weren’t quite home yet when it finished so we went just over 2 miles. So going into week 3 we are sitting at 11.7 miles with the app. Not too shabby, especially considering there have been a few days we’ve done extra, and then multiple walks without the app. So yay for getting up and out!

Last night before bed I did a little yoga to stretch out those calves, Achilles, and hammys. Then of course I felt like doing some back bends and even some push ups too! It was just a jumble of “oooh this feels good” “mmmm now this part feels neglected”… but it was nice.

Tonight I’m planning to do yin as recovery.

I’m SO missing the studio. Kath, come homeeee!


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